Close but not quite 💔

That night, i went to the after party

that’s when i met her again

 

i had totally forgotten about her

well i saw that she had been in Vancouver for a while now since the summer

but i never actually expected to meet her

since she doesn’t really come to events much

when she first saw me her face lit up a bit

like it was nice seeing someone she familiar

still though, at that point, i was currently talking to some girls on the couch

“i’ll go say hi later i suppose”

later on after a few more conversations with people i haven’t seen in a while

i saw her outside the balcony

she beckoned me to come outside

i gladly followed her

we caught up about how we’ve been

i hadn’t seen her in two years after all

she’s been well, changed majors into English literature

yadda yadda yadda

it was a nice conversation

she got settled on the couch outside

i naturally went on to talk to other people as well

but as the party progressed

there were less and less people i was interested in talking to

most of the people i already knew, i already knew

and have talked to them a lot already

i was using this party as an opportunity to connect with new people after all

i naturally gravitated towards her again

there really wasn’t a rational thought behind it

my body kind of just did, maybe it was because i was a bit tipsy too

maybe it was because i saw N sleeping on the lap of his crush

and i knew deep down

i wanted to try

so i sat down next to her

and we had a few more light conversations and moments

eventually the party died down and i naturally left

 

that night

for some reason i couldn’t sleep

her face kept popping up in my mind

i kept thinking about her

that’s when i knew

i think i like her

 

the next day after i knew i liked her

i knew i had to follow through on my word

so i told a few of my friends that i was going to try

that was a the first time in a while i had opened up about someone i liked

and with that confidence i asked her on a date

and she said yes

 

it was very flirty at the start

texts had way too many emojis

every word was super lengthened

i knew she was interested

maybe a bit too interested

“suuuuper down”

oh how right i was

 

our first date was memorable

we played a couple games in the arcade

some japanese rhythm games

some pool, some darts

then we talked, had food, talked, got boba, talked, then she suggested karaoke

and that was the highlight of the night

i felt so seen

we felt so connected

i had never sang japanese songs with anyone before

especially some of my favorite songs of all time

it was magical

and she sang so well

and we sang together so well

i complimented her so much

of course she reflected it back at me

it was really fun

 

it was at that moment that i was attached and felt the spark

it was natural, it felt inevitable, sort of like fate

everything just clicked

our backgrounds, our shared interests, her personality

i loved it all

 

we met a few more times here and there

texting pretty much everyday

about some random stuff

me sending random reels and memes

one time was karaoke with many others

another was just a study into art maker’s market

another was just seeing her after class and getting boba

she fit me into her schedule

she prioritised me

she was late to class multiple times

we played games sometimes

some late night calls

she even fell asleep on call once

she showed me all her song covers she did since she was like 12

she told me none of her classmates even know about this

 

and of course the park bench date after ice cream

she told me all about her ex